caught between

so. some good news on the 'future-home-front'.

as you may or may not know, i am on the move. some of you may say that's my natural state, but i beg a re-examination. just perhaps, i have been on the move, road-weary, in an attempt to find a harmony, to find a home. (see previous posts...hehe) perhaps, i didn't know how to do anything else until recently. no matter. i digress...

my recent exit from sunny santa barbara has begun the Great Journey of '08. a change in life and in locale. I will take the next 6 months, as of today, to circuitously traverse the road to my new and future home, Nashville. long before i pack all i own in 'crushed velvet', my new and more trusty steed, i will be spending the summer months, more or less, in my original stomping ground, marin county, and my quaint hometown novato. not to say i won't be visiting places new and old, unfamiliar and be-loved.

for now, the house i grew up in, the house my father built, the house on robinhood drive, will be my place to launch from and take respite in.

i will be heading back to the promised land: montana. i will be seeking new memories on the high mesas of hopiland, az. i will hike the golden state lands, from whence i came, in hopes i can capture it before i leave it. and as planned, i am hoping to do this all with my lovely lady.

i thought that this summer was going to be different than the last three. summers '05, '06, '07: journeys of the formation of self. i thought that this fated summer '08 would be a pale comparison. but as i write, i realize that i could have not been more wrong. yes, life has turned out to be quite wonderful.

so. about that news i spoke about. well, news of a design/fabrication firm in Nashville has found it's way to my ears. a place where the blue and white collar meet. where the artistic mind is found in league with the tradesmen's hands. perhaps, it is a place where i might find a home. we'll see.

my friends. i am straining, but in all this talk of journeys, i see a fate unfolding. i seek the strength to continue to trust and press on. and i pray that i have the ability to tell this story well...